I can remember exactly what I was doing this time last year, I am laid where Makkos was on the sofa. Grandad went in the night and was nearly 2 hours car drive away, and Makkos, I sat on the floor with him in my arms while it happened, I remember it all so well.
I then spent nearly three hours on trains crying my eyes out. I hate that you were part of that day but I am great full of how you helped.
My weight jumped up from the past few days. Urges are huge. Today is too hard. I have therapy and I’m going to go swimming. I am planning on a full photo intake though to get me through. I know it’s best for me and my recovery and it will be what Makkos would have cuddled me to do.
Otto is getting lots of cuddles today, I know he doesn’t understand time but I know he misses them too. We always talk about them.
Anyway, thank you for letting me talk to you guys, lots of love and keep fighting because life is precious 💗 xxxxx